Why am I still grieving so intensely months/years later?

Many people quietly wonder:

• Why does this still hurt so much?

• Shouldn’t I be feeling better by now?

• Is something wrong with me?

• Why am I still grieving years later?

There’s a lot of pressure in our culture to “be okay” after a certain amount of time. But grief doesn’t follow a calendar or timeline. Grief is not something you get over. It’s something you learn to live with.

Intensity Doesn’t Always Mean Something Is Wrong
Even months or years later, grief can feel intense. Grief waves can still show up unexpectedly. Certain dates, memories, or life events can bring everything back to the surface. This just means your loss mattered.

Grief can feel especially intense or long-lasting when:

• The death was sudden or traumatic

• There were complicated relationship dynamics

• You didn’t get closure

• You were very closely connected

• The loss significantly changed your daily life or your identity

When a death was traumatic, some people don’t just miss the person, they relive aspects of how the death happened. They may experience intrusive memories, mental images, or a sense of being pulled back into the moment they found out. That kind of grief can feel more challenging and difficult to move forward with.

Over time, many people find that grief shifts. It may not dominate every hour of the day. But it doesn’t vanish.
You might function well most days and still have moments when it feels raw. You might laugh more and still miss them deeply. You may build a full life and still carry the absence.
Both things can be true.
Growing around grief doesn’t mean it’s gone. It means your life has expanded enough to hold it.

When to Consider Additional Support:
There is no “correct” timeline. But it may be helpful to seek professional support if:

• The intensity feels constant with little relief

• You are frequently reliving the death itself

• Intrusive memories or images feel overwhelming

• You feel stuck in guilt, anger, or despair

• You are unable to function in daily life

• You feel hopeless or unsafe

Seeking support is not about labeling your grief. It’s about helping you carry it in a way that feels more manageable. Check out Grief in Common with Karyn Arnold for additional resources, including grief groups or grief coaching.

What Does Grief Feel Like? (Emotionally & Physically)

Grief is not just emotional. It affects your thoughts, your behaviors, your body, and sometimes your spiritual or existential beliefs. Many people are surprised by how physical grief feels. If you’re wondering whether what you’re experiencing is normal, you’re not alone.

Grief Is More Than Sadness

People often expect grief to feel like sadness. But many describe it as a bundled-up box of emotions, multiple feelings happening all at once.
You might experience:

• Sadness and anger in the same hour

• Relief and guilt together

• Numbness followed by intense emotion

• Anxiety, fear, or irritability

• A sense of meaninglessness or questioning your beliefs

Grief is rarely one emotion at a time. It can feel layered and unpredictable.

The Cognitive Effects of Grief
Grief can impact how you think. Many people report:

• Brain fog

• Forgetfulness

• Trouble concentrating

• Difficulty making decisions

• Re-reading the same sentence multiple times

This is often called “grief brain,” and it’s a common reaction after a significant loss.

The Physical Symptoms of Grief
Grief is stored in the body. It can feel heavy, almost like you’re physically carrying something.
Common physical symptoms of grief include:

• Extreme exhaustion

• Sleep disruption

• Headaches

• Stomachaches or digestive changes

• Muscle tension or body aches

• Tightness in the chest

• Changes in appetite

Research shows that stress levels increase during grief, and inflammation in the body can rise. This can make you feel run down and more susceptible to illness. You’re not imagining it. Grief can truly be physical.

Behavioral and Spiritual Shifts
You may also notice changes in how you behave or see the world:

• Withdrawing from others

• Losing interest in activities you once enjoyed

• Avoiding certain places or conversations

• Questioning your faith or long-held beliefs

• Feeling different from who you used to be

Loss has a way of shaking the foundation of how we understand life.

If this sounds familiar, it's because grief can feel overwhelming, as it impacts so many areas at once. It isn’t “just” emotional. It’s a full-body, full-life experience.

If you want to hear real conversations about what grief actually feels like, including grief brain, physical symptoms, and emotional waves, we talk openly about this on the GRIEF Ladies podcast, as well as tools to help you with these feelings and symptoms. New episodes come out every Wednesday as we go through our GRIEF Ladies Framework- Grieving, Rebuilding, Interacting, Evolving, and Finding.